After reading JunYang's blog (the story posted in there), i suddenly realised its really important to treasure the people you are with now. It's really important to not think that we always have tomorrow to complete whatever we have to do. It's great to let this special person know how much I care. Sometimes I wish I had this courage to do all these things. Saying that you care to someone you know very well is not hard at all. Saying the same thing to someone you like is completely different I guess. But right now, I jus wanna tell everyone who read my blog, "I really love you guys very very much!" *LuV yA*

Very very tired le. After a PE day as usual... Brains can't function anymore... Got to go get some rest.. b4 i 'zonk' out..... zzZZZZzzzzz

Sigh... Wat a day... Just realised that I forgot to bring PE T-shirt. Now waiting for my sis to take a cab down and save my life... hope she'll get here on time...

Today was a long long day... Reached school at 7am, but left school at 8.40pm. Firstly, due to the stupid new timetable, my lesson end at 5.35pm, with GP as the 1st 2 periods of the day, and Chinese being the last 2 periods of the day. Had 3 tutorials n 2 lectures in the middle, awww... how great can that be? Had lunch at 2.15 followed by a self-study period. Tot i could rest? No!!! Me and my friends ran over to SCAS cos we tot we're late, and then later ran back to school cos we're late for Chinese. Did some voluntary work over there, yup, more like helping the kid to clean his saliva most of the time. Haha... Opps, i guess i should not say them like this, cos they suffer from cerebal palsy, and they cant help drooling. Jocelyn tot my class's kids are easier to look after. No.... she is wrong. They are so stubborn, even though they are more independent. We had to do some singing and actions to spur them on for music lesson. Made a fool of myself again as usual. Haha. Tried to help them move their limbs, but they simply refused! So sickening... Guess I hav to be more patient with them sia... I was abit, or rather pretty, grossed out by the saliva thingy, but i got over it eventually. Lol... Wished I could stay there longer, and volunteer myself longer. I always enjoyed doing voluntary work... =)

Rushed back to school for chi lesson. Once again, I malu(ed) myself. Haha.. I tot I heard the morning announcement say CLAO students please proceed to LT4 for lessons, and happily, I went there with 2 other classmates, and found ourselves staring at a LT half full of J1s. Lol... Den we realised dat the announcement in the morning is meant for the J1s. Haha... Went to class got back our Chi block test paper. I failed, as expected. Its only a marginal fail though.

Went to band after dat, gosh, my tone sux big time! couldn't play a single thing well. Didn't have a horn to play for the 1st song cos my horn is lend to ZhengHong. Shared a horn with Jac. *sigh* tone still sux. Guess i didn't warm up enough b4 playing ba... Had a meeting after band which lasted till 8.30, when band ended at 7.40. Still gotta sort out e reeds thingy... Its in quite a mess though.

Reached home at 9.30. Ate dinner at 10pm. Got a bad gastric too... But no matter watever bad things that happen to me today, I'll still be very happie... Haha... Dun tink I'm mad.. My very close friends will noe e reason y I'm so happie... Lol... ^_^ still got a whole load of work yet to be done. guess i gotta go resign to my fate le... Can't wait for the next band prac. Its only during band prac when i can relax a lil'. *haiz* really gotta go le... If not all e teachers will start coming after me!!.......

My dad just came home from a wedding in M'sia. Yayness... Miss him so much when he was away. He brought home a gift from my long lost contact friend! He is my dad's friend's son. Got to know him years ago when i went to M'sia. He is very nice, n we used to write letters to each other. Now no longer liao... So nice of him to still remember me. Haha... He gave me a ball pen (well i dun use ball pen) but its ok, i'll always keep it. Hehe...

Basically, i did not do anything today... Jus folded lots n lots of joss paper for the coming 'qing ming jie'. yups... spent the whole afternoon doing dat. haha... Nothing special happened today so i guess i'll jus stop here ba... gotta go try the super hard Probability tutorial which is due tmr... still got lots of other things. guess i gonna haf a late night again... haha... Tmr we gonna follow the new timetable le. Its really torturous, cos now, we gonna haf 3 tutorials on mon. Which will only mean dat i must complete the hw for all 3 tutorials by sunday, which is TODAY!!! *sigh* Gonna haf a late monday too... Lessons end at 5.35 and band start at 5.00. Got some voluntary work over at SCAS tmr too, during my free period. Gotta get all geared up for a really hectic Monday i guess. *sigh* again... haha... But in exchange, we got an early Fri! so i guess its not too bad after all... All e Monday blues are coming again... omg... cant wait for band to start tmr... at least its nearer to e end of the day by the time band starts. haha...

yayness... Today I went back to TKBand to see all my juniors. I'm so happie to see all of them! Really miss them so much! It's been a long long time since the last time i went back. Feel so bad actually. The once mighty French Horn section is no longer mighty. Its not longer the best section in the band. When I'm still in the band, French Horn section is always one of those with the best attendence, and most creative instrument gimmick, and is the best section. It breaks my heart to see that its not doing very well. The instrument gimmick is no longer the fanciful turl up turl down one. It became something pretty plain, but still there are people not doing it well. Ppl are marching like as though they never learned marching in their life. Marching from formation to formation is quite horrid too. Well, at least the formations are visible to ppl. If not its really gone case. 21 days left, hope they can make to the finals to compete for the "Best Display Band" award which we've gotten for the past 3 consecutive years.

My body is aching all over sia. Its so hard to walk up and down e steps! Its so torturous....Its all due to the over strenuous PE lesson yesterday. We ran 4 rounds round the track (1.6 km) within 10 mins. Well, i didnt make it within 10 mins though, haha, but my timing was ok lah, 10.27 mins. and right after dat, we did 30 sit-ups in 1 min, and den 15 tuck jumps. It may not sound alot to do, but its simply just enough to kill! whahaha... esp my thighs and stomach, they r aching like siao! Sure hope it'll be ok by tmr....

Today the weather is so humid! walking on the streets can really cause a person to kena heat stroke sia... haha... went to TK in the morn n followed them to CCAB (CCA Branch) by hired bus. wow~~ dat place is like a life oven. its so hot.... Went to walk along Orchard wif Joce after dat. Quite fun lah.... haha... so long nv hang out lydat le... Den we went to take the train. We did a very stupid thing (as usual, when did we not do stupid stuff) we got on the train at Orchard and went to Pasir Ris, took back to Tampines, n back to Pasir Ris (where Joce left), and I took it back to Bedok, all because we wanna kill time... lol quite funny lah... At least this time is not as bad as the previous time which I smuggled Ice-cream into the train wif Lynn. Lol!!! Tink we're childish sia... haha...

I'm so tired now!! so sleepy too... Still wondering how to change the blog skin to a much nicer one... lol... going to sleep soon le ba... *YaWn*... tired physically, tired mentally... jus plain tired.... zzzZZzzZZZZzz.......

Tonight, the J1s ppl are having campfire in e sch. So cool.. to be able to have a campfire. Last yr our campfire is distrupted by Sars. Sux man... Well, dats besides the point.. haha.. hope thay had a fun time. =)

*Sigh*... Felt that all my energy is used up for the block test. I studied very hard this time, but apparently I'm expecting Fs again. I seriously dunno what happened lor. To think that i put in so much effort for chem, and today I just saw all my efforts go down the drain. Now I'm starting to ask myself: am I actually suited for a JC cirriculum? My teacher once told me, some ppl are just not suited for JC, and that they would be much better off at a Poly. Am I 1 of those? Its really depressing to see such lousy results when you know you've tried your best. I swear I never studied so hard in my life. I'm one of those who do alot of last minute studying. This time I started in advance! What more can I do? I'm really afraid to recieve the results. Is there too much catching up for me to do? I slacked too much? Haiz. Seriously... I really feel like crying now. I'm at my wits end.

Went to watch "The eye 2" today. It didn't turn out to be as scary as i thought it will be. I didn't scream at all.. well, was a lil' scared lah.. but its all me and my friend scaring each other. Haha. We cuddled up and drew our jackets near our eyes to block out some of the scene because we don't dare to watch. Haha... Lol.. =) It was ok lah. Just that I'm a bit scared of concieving in the future... Haha.. Just look at how the ghost go in to the body... ewww.. Its gross man. Haha. That scene totally sux. Overall, its not bad lah.

Guess I'm too tired. I need a break; a break from studying. If not I'm going mad sooner or later. I don't wish for more, jus a pass in all my subjects for a start. Wish I can improve, and not get stuck at the failing level. If not....... die.... Gosh, wonder why i chose JC in the first place. Studies is simply driving me mad. A'levels is coming soon. What am I suppose to do?? WAH..... A helping hand anyone?

wah... wat a day.. haha.. I'm back in sch. yup. using e sch com now. Tmr is finally going to be the last day of e block test! & after dat, i'm free!!! haha.. Can't wake up this morning though, but i had to wake up or else i'll get slughtered by this vicious fish.. well.. its only jocelyn lah.. haha.. I made her sound so bad. Suppose to meet her at 8.30 in sch, but look, i only manage to pull myself out of bed at 7.20.. well well.. I guess I'm gonna be late again. To my surprise, i actually saw Jocelyn at e bus stop! didn't expect her to reach bout e same time as me.. haha.. I guess the bus and train I took must have "flew" to its destination, because I left the house at 8.05, and I'm surprise i reached Pasir Ris at 8.25. Lol..

Anyway.. Life isn't as great as you think it is. I stepped into sch n i saw the freshmens in the hall. They are all geared up for the "Amazing race" around Pasir Ris, Tampines, Simei, & Bedok. oh.. how fun.. So wanna be a freshmen again. Then I'll be able to join all the games and fun. Sigh.. and not be stuck here to do studying!!

Looking forward to band on Fri.. heez.. There will be more ppl attending band i suppose. It'll be still be the usual few, or rather usual lot. =) really hope days are going to get "funner".. haha... anyway... gtg le.. not much time left to write crap here.. Lol..=P

oh great... I think i just screwed up my econs paper this morning... Chinese went on pretty well, but definitly not econs! Well, econs is not my forte anyway. Just hope i'll do better for my next 2 papers -- Maths & Chem on wed. Well, I'm ready to die for GP too. So I'll just pray hard I'll get through the rest. haha... Saw the ppl having orientation in the hall. Wished i can have orientation again. I was never an OGL... perhaps next time ba... Slacking here at this very moment.. haha.. Getting down to studying later.. so yup.. All e best to myself i guess.. Lol..

sigh... things jus dun feel the same. i feel that i have so much things in my mind, so much dat i cant take it soon.... i jus cant seemed to find a way to put it to words. its really not easy.. i'm not being myself. where had my cheerful usual self gone to? where is e free of stress, free of worries, and optimistic me?

oh ya... JunYang, Joel and Eugene made it to MJ! so does so many other band members like BaoLun, WenQi, SioKoon, Delon, Justin, WeeJuay, Vincent, Benny, YiXiang, Priscilla and many others... Hooray!! finally can see all of them again... hope band is going to be full of life wif them around...

Maybe its because of the block test that is making me so stressed up. I'm usually not one of those who get stress up by tests... but these days, i seemed to be studying more then i usually do. I even prepare tests way before they come. I tink i'm scaring myself... haha... well... things do change i guess... I tink i'm most probably gonna get retained if i still continue slacking. The future jus seemed so scary. I really simply have no idea wat its gonna be. I'm getting nothing but Fs.. Just have no idea how i'm going to make it to university.

The time is not early now, but i just don't feel like going to sleep. I feel like i lost all life just because of a stupid block test. *sigh* Just hope things will get better...

Well... At this very moment, i'm really under alot of stress.... can u believe it? i actually walked home from e interchange jus now cos i jus feel like letting e wind blow away my problems while walking home... silly idea ya? It took me 25 mins instead of a 10 mins bus ride... haha... dunno wats wrong wif mi oso... jus dun feel right today... everything seems to be going against me. i jus hope that everything gets better soon... as soon as block test is over, i believe my troubles will be over... oh ya.. JunYang is coming over to MJ really soon i think.. looking forward to see him... =) veri worn out now... gotta go get some rest..

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