Friday, March 31, 2006
get me away from the reality...
bring me to a faraway land...
away from the pain, hardship and sorrow...
to a beautiful perfect place full of love, peace and joy...
i'm dreaming again...
today, simply too many miracles happened...
1st miracle -- i answered my tutor's question in tutorial. he was so happie! i've never seen him smile that much to me... he must be thinking "man.. this girl finally managed to understand what i'm going through, and is finally willing to open her mouth n ans my question! she did her work!" hahaa... yea... i feel happie seeing my tutor happie too...
2nd miracle -- i'm a late queen. n therefore i'm seldom or never on time for my lessons. esp ALS101, i never seemed to be on time for it... but....... today i'm the 2nd person to reach!! not that i'm early... it's jus that the rest of the class were late.. i tot the tutorial changed venue.. how can there possibly be only 1 student in the class at 2.28 when tutorial starts at 2.30??? n somemore my class gals are one of those hardworking type of ppl (so unlike me), they will surely reach early one.. but today, the only gal there before me was from another class attending make up tutorial today. i peeped in to make sure i'm in the right class, scan the empty room hoping i'll see a farmiliar face, until the gal said "u'r in the right class. i'm jus here for make up. =)" hahahaa... den the tutor came. she was also veri surprise i was earlier then the rest. oh man..
3rd miracle -- my last minute draft managed to get me through the consultation session today!! that's good. i thought she was gonna doubt all that i wrote. i dun even understand some parts of it.. oh man.. must have a total revamp le...
tmr have math quiz... wish me luck...
`love
3/31/2006 03:11:00 am
Tuesday, March 28, 2006
"in life, there's always ups and downs. no one's life is perfect. when things go wrong, learn from the mistake and never commit the same mistake again. learn to be a happier person, only then will one see the beauty of life. the downs will only be a short period of time in our life, and our angel will see us through it."
indeed, the world is supposed to be a beautiful place. but how often do ppl look at it at an optimistic manner?
going to a few posts back to talk about what geri asked me the other day. if i die tmr, will i die with or without regrets?
i would die with regrets.
regrets not about the things i've done, but regrets about the things i've not done.
firstly, i've yet to fufil my parent's wishes, and that is to let them see me grow and be a sensible girl. to complete my education and get a proper job, to find a right man and marry, to grow old and be happy ever after.
secondly, i've yet to experience a whole lot of things. like what geri mentioned in her blog, she listed a lot of places and things she would wanna do. that's what i would like to do too. some of which being sitting on a roller coaster which makes 360 turn, go skiing in switzerland n so on...
but all these things aside, lastly, i would like to experience growing old with my best friends. i wanna see them get married, be one of the bridesmaid, still have fun outings when we meet up be it when we're 30 or 50, meet up and have little chats on how silly we used to be when we were teens.
i also wanna experience love and hate. not that i wanna experience hate, but that's part of the phrase isnt it? i wanna find someone i truly love, who love me too. i wanna be daring and get into a relationship each time i feel for someone. but u'll probably not see me ever do that. cos i cant bear to risk another heart being broken cos of me.
i dun have the habit of regreting things i've done, because, if it's wrong, it'll be a lesson learnt, and i didnt do it on purpose, so it cant entirely be my fault. if it's in relationship sense, i've hurt a person because i feel that things cant work out, i wun regret because i know i'll regret only if i went ahead with the relationship. if i get hurt by others or to find out that something didnt work out eventually, i wun regret because i know that at that point of time, it was right to me, and i was really happie. so it's all worth it.
since young, i've started to look at things from an optimistic point of view. but that doesnt mean that i wun ever feel sad. there're times i'm down, times where i feel upset or stressed up.
u jus didnt get to see the tears behind those smiles.
so.. when things go wrong, put it all behind u and start all over again. better things will be awaiting u out there.
smile.
`love
3/28/2006 01:40:00 am
Sunday, March 26, 2006
brilliant. someone please be there to catch my fall at the end of this coming week. i'm gonna faint from stress.
monday, 27/3/2006:
1. inorganic chem test which consist of the entire module's syllabus
tuesday, 28/3/2006:
2. project work (need to finalise already!)
3. organic chem lab session (means 1 more lab report do have)
wednesday, 29/3/2006:
4. number theory test (
pleassssse let me pass this test)
thursday, 30/3/2006:
5. academic writing research paper draft due!!
friday, 31/3/2006:
6. finite maths test (oh let me pass this test too)
the following week is not any better...
monday, 3/4/2006:
7. 2 inorganic chem lab report due
tuesday, 4/4/2006:
8. another organic chem lab session (another lab report!!! ahhhh)
9. ICT PBL due!!!!!!
thursday, 6/4/2006:
10. academic research paper due!!!!!
oh dear... how am i going to finish all my work? *faints* well, at least my classroom management essay is all done and handed up on fri... 1 less thing on hand... haizz...
at least i noe that a certain no longer bug me down... i feel that i'm another step closer to forgetting the whole episode... i feel that i'm another step closer to being a happier carefree person... i feel that i'm another step closer to my old self.
so glad it's all over...
but another step closer to all the above doesnt mean i've reached the finishing line... i'll eventually reach it.. i'll eventually be able to put it all behind me... jus don't let anything pull me down again...
please don't..
`love
3/26/2006 04:00:00 pm
Saturday, March 25, 2006
oh man... i jus told jinyuan i'm not going to blog for tonight... cos i blogged TOO many times yesterday n today... oh god.. look wat i did? i blogged!!!
*faint*
now i'm up with my veri own 50 things u might wanna know (or already know) about me! lol
1. i don't eat veg. my only dosage of veg is from the wonton my mum cook for me once in a while.
2. i had an operation on my left knee in sec 4. n i fainted of fright in the operation theatre before the doc could inject anaesthetic to numb my knee. haha
3. i'm short, but i'm not the shortest in my family! (my mum is not even 150)
4. my bro who is 10 yrs older then me is 187cm tall! (ppl always say we don't look like siblings.. haha)
5. i fell down in the lecture theatre during the first few weeks of lesson. and the place i fell is quite front, so everybody behind saw my fall! eeks..
6. i play block catching until the age of 19.
7. i don't have any boyfriend before.
8. i fall in love easily, but always have trouble getting out of it.
9. i'm a really indecisive person.
10. i'm nocturnal.
11. i once started a conversation with a person i saw on the bus, only to realise i mistook her as my friend!
12. alot of ppl mistook me for a salesgirl, be it in giordano, department store, or even topshop! *piang*
13. i lost my wallet more then 3 times already.
14. the only time i had short hair was when i was 4yrs old n below!
15. i was in taf club when i'm in primary school... hahaa... i'm fat!
16. i dunno how to watch the road when i cross one. so watch out for me!
17. i love jogging! (nah.. i jus love to lose fats that's all)
18. i was in english remedial classes for 6 consecutive yrs! wow.. it really sux! haha..
19. i love the sea n soak my feet in them.
20. i've never watched a proper sunrise before (someone bring me there!!)
21. i spilled hot tea once on a customer when i was working in sushi tei as a waitress.
22. i obtained the "gold" cert in swimming, but i still cant swim very well! darn..
23. i learnt cycling only at the age of 13. n i didnt fall while learning it! i fell only after i knew how to cycle.. hahahaa
24. i snipped off the hair of my barbie doll, thinking it will grow again like how mine grows. it's when i'm young ok? haha.. i know it's retarded.
25. i've never cheated in exam before. but minor ones like chinese ting xie, countless times. haha..
26. i'm late 99% of the times of lessons, be it in secondary school, jc, or now.
27. when i first pierce my ear in primary sch, i screamed so loud in pain that the shopowner next door thought someone robbed the shop. heh
28. the 1st time i tried pasta was when my friend (lynn n jill) and i cooked them together! it turned out good ok?
29. i tried my hamster's chocolate treat before... eeek.. it's quite bland.. unlike human choc..
30. i mistook condoms for sweets when i was really young. i even beg my mum to buy it for me! and i got the cashier staring at me... oops...
31. i love crispy fries.. but i like nua noodles.. haha
32. i didnt do anything to my hair (e.g. style, rebond, perm, dye) until age of 19!
32. i smell my pillow/bolster to sleep.
33. my study table at home looked like it's never been packed for years.
34. i have a fetish for organising notes. hahaa... weird fetish i know..
35. i cant eat beef cos i'm a buddhist. but i eat them anyway. uh-oh.
36. i was scared of ants when i'm young.
37. i stepped into the wrong toilet once. used the cubicle, came out, only to find a man staring at me! good thing he's not peeing! (oh how could i have missed the urinal?) blur blur blur
38. i used to think that ppl have sex jus by sleeping next to a person wif opposite sex on the bed! silly me.. i was so afraid to sleep next to my dad when i had that thought in me.. whahaha
39. i once hurt my fingers by closing the door on them while going out, and 5 mins later when i returned to my room and went out again, i hurt my toes by closing on them (cos i concentrate too much on not slamming them on my fingers the second time round).
40. i try out my sister's clothes and imagine i'm an adult when i was much younger.
41. i was embarressed by my mum by having her to shout my name so loudly with one of her foot on the bus, another on the road. (she was shouting for me to hurry up get on before the bus leave.)
42. i love to make jelly!
43. i'm a super heavy sleeper! my whole family calls me a pig...
44. my highest record is having 18 miss calls attempting to wake me up and finally answered the 19th one.
45. i dun like to wash my hair when i was young (yucks).. now i find it unbearable to not wash them daily!
46. i love to take photos!! but i dun tink i'm photogenic...
47. i wanna own a volkswagen beetle! yellow colour one!!
48. i've nv worn a bikini in my life so far!
49. i once nodded and gave my best smile at a caucasian while he's talking to me (when i was working at sushi tei, serving him), without catching a word he's saying! he spoke too fast for me!
last but not least......
50. i have fat thighs!!!!!!!!!
argh... it's so hard to come up wif 50 things... but i made it! yea.. it's a result of boredom.. can destress also.. hahaa... no more nua-ing tmr liao.. lol...
have a good laugh guys..
smile, cheer up, be happie!
`love
3/25/2006 12:47:00 am
Friday, March 24, 2006
ooooh.. sexy kahwoon! hahahahaa
`love
3/24/2006 11:38:00 am
oh.. aren't we cute? haha... or acting cute?? lol
`love
3/24/2006 11:36:00 am
the gang!!
`love
3/24/2006 11:34:00 am
our drinks! white one is lychee martini, blue one is eski blue, pink one is a mocktail, and the black one is graveyard.. heh heh...
`love
3/24/2006 11:30:00 am
whoo~ look at that ice bar... haha
`love
3/24/2006 11:27:00 am
bday boy with bday cake!
happie bday kw!!
`love
3/24/2006 11:22:00 am
the bday cake by coffee club! haha.. it's super yummy!
`love
3/24/2006 11:20:00 am
yes! a dish create by us.. does it looks nice or gross? hahaa....
(we even wiped the edge of the plate so as to not make it seemed like it's used!)
*bish*
`love
3/24/2006 11:16:00 am
celebrated kahwoon's bday at coffeeclub @ holland V. dinner was good! created a new dish out of all our leftovers again (we always do that). haha... photo on the way! i wanted to use the toilet, and so i pulled jill along.. in front of us was wat looks like a toilet, but we were unsure.. so we tried pushing the door.. nothing happened. so we thought inside got ppl.. n so we waited.. jill jill suggested knocking to see if there's anyone in there. but i said it's fine.. lets just wait.. after some time, jill commented that there doesnt seem to be any shadow from the tiny slit under the door. so we decide to give the door another push, this time, harder. and so the door opened and revealed it's empty cubicle.. oh man.. i could have killed myself.. waited for nothing.
went to sushi tei to eat desserts after that.. *yummy* me, lynn n jill went up to 2nd floor to use the toilet jus before leaving. we found ourselves in this tiny little room with a sink and a cubicle and with a unisex sign hanging on the main door (not the cubicle door). n so lynn n jill closed the main door while i'm inside the cubicle, and both of them went in together when i'm out. the main door suddenly swung open and there the manager is standing looking at me saying "erm.. this door is meant to be open. and u might want to use the cubicle here (he points right to another female only cubicle, thinking that i'm queueing for the toilet). and smart me went "oh.. nah.. it's fine.. i'm used the toilet already, and i'm jus standing here waiting for them. erm.. i meant.. her..." oh wow.. how graceful.. the manager must be thinking.. gee.. i wonder how many of them there are in the cubicle... oh god... wat's with me and toilet advantures yesterday?
went to eski bar to settle down for a drink (cos we're too full to eat). the drink there is not bad! ordered eski blue, but swapped it with jill, cos she couldnt take the lychee martini as it's too strong for her. poor kw ordered graveyard, which totally didnt sound like wat i heard from the others during the bash. it's black n bitter and strong.. eeeee.... went into this room which is minus 16 degree celcius.. haha.. yes.. total madness! i felt that i stepped into a freezer.. or worse... lol... we took hell lot of photos in there.. absolute madness! haha...
went out to take a cab back... couldnt part with the cam.. so we ended up taking another round of photos... lol.. yes yes... photo freak.. lol.. it's a fun day! hope u enjoyed ur bday kw!! and hope the rest enjoyed too!!
and so we cab back to hall, took a bath, and view all the photos.. jus as i was about to doze off, my classmate msn me telling me that our tutor would not be around in the afternoon, so we die die must hand in the essay by 9 plus in the morning!!! n so i spent 1 whole sleepless night doing it, with half the time trying my best to keep awake... didnt feel well in the morning.. probably got to do with the lack of sleep + alcohol before that... but thank goodness i'm fine already... handed up my essay too... but hell lot more things to do... it's ok.. i'm going for a stress free day today!!
yes! shopping spree with dear geri!! haha... i'm sooooo looking forward to it... =)
meanwhile, i shall go catch up on my sleep... cannot tahan anymore... too tired!!
`love
3/24/2006 10:57:00 am
well... it seems like i have no more mood to blog about y previous post already.. shall leave it as it is... if u guys wanna noe the details, can come ask me...
yesterday in the library i almost broke down... i have so many so many things to do.. n it seems never ending.. i feel so lousy.. feel so stupid to not be able to perform up to standard for math. math have always been my favourite subject, always on the top of my list. now i jus cant seemed to perform. not to say perform well beyond expectation like getting As or Bs
(which i think i ought to), i'm not even getting Cs or Ds!! *kill me* i hate to see my teacher so disappointed... everybody is so worried for me and here i am having piles of work to do n i simply cant finish them! argh...
nvm... i swear i'll make every other day better then the previous...
`love
3/24/2006 10:24:00 am
Wednesday, March 22, 2006
regrets.
if i die tmr, will i have any regrets?
geri had jus sparked off this thought in me, jus like how her roomie sparked off the same thought in her. jus a short note, i'll not die in peace, but with regrets. i'll get into details when i have more time to spare. definitely not on this crazy super early morning with 2 more assignments on my hand which i die die must hand in by tmr.
leaving with a quote which i will further elaborate together with the topic above on dying with regrets.
"u'll never get to see the tears behind those smiles."
`love
3/22/2006 02:00:00 am
Tuesday, March 21, 2006
nua nua nua nua nua
all i feel like doing is to nua on my bed...
y is my bed so comfy??
y is it so cozy??
shittttti'm never gonna get any work done...
`love
3/21/2006 06:07:00 pm
Monday, March 20, 2006
went to xinyi's house on sunday cos she having a celebration thingy at her house for her 21st bday... lynn n jill's dad could give them a lift.. so of cos i went along happily.. i'm really glad for the car ride.. cos xinyi stay freaking far.. sembawang!!! hahaa... went to hall to put their stuff before driving to her place... and so we were busy checking the directory n stuff like that, mis-reading xinyi's block as 476 when it's supposed to be 467. so we told their dad to take PIE, den to KJE, followed by BKE n lastly SLE... n so we drove along the mrt line and finally reached admaralty drive. we got down at blk 476 happily and thought we were early... so we took the lift up to 5th floor, only to realise that the unit number ranges around 300+ and xinyi's unit number is 195.
so we gave xinyi a call to ask if her unit number is right, cos we cant find 195. then she asked if we were at the right block, cos hers is 467, not 467 A, B, C, or D. n i gasped super loudly in shock -- i brought them to the wrong block!! oh man... so we walk down the road, hoping to come across a blk 467. we finally found it, but realise the road name is canberry drive or something like that. jus in case we end up at the wrong block again, lynn msged xinyi asking her wat's her block colour. we waited in anticipation for her reply to be something along the line of pink, pale pink, or peach in colour.. but..... her reply is blue. (which is so off to wat is in front of us.) we panicked that we might once again be at the wrong block, cos the colour of the block is definitely not blue. only the windows are blue. so we called her to ask if her block colour is really blue. guess wat? her reply is... nope... it's the windows that's blue...
*faint on the spot*
after all the drama (we always have drama when u place only us together), we finally arrived at xinyi's house safe n sound. =)
now, back to reality... super alot of work due this week n next... bless me... while i try to keep myself alive, and not suffocated under the mountain of work.
putting it all behind mewill i be able to do that?i still wan a smile on my face...
`love
3/20/2006 07:31:00 pm
Saturday, March 18, 2006
yesterday had
one night stand with the hall ppl. we chartered 2 bus to bring 80 over ppl to bukit timah beauty world for dinner, den to cine leisure for a midnight movie "the date movie", den to gelyang lor 9 for supper. it's fun no doubt. haha. feels good to be around them, laughing and talking cok n stuff like that. do it while we can. next yr will be completely different when ppl starts leaving and moving out, when freshies enter out lives as we move on to yr 2.
the frog leg porridge at geylang is simply fantastic la... should go there n eat when u guys have time. haha...
alot of things on my mind again.
i wanna smile n be happie.try put a smile on my face.
`love
3/18/2006 05:34:00 pm
havent have a good chat wif lynn n jill for a long long time... everybody is so preoccupied with the many things we have to do. in particular, our studies. we seem to leave by the many deadlines we have till the end of april. oh please end this soon.
n so yesterday was the perfect chance to catch up. originally vex over something small n silly as usual. but no longer, cos they found a solution for me. thanx guys.. another load off my mind.
n so i wanted to give u away..back to where u belong..but now i'm keeping u for good..n keeping all the memories that came wif it..an end... finally...
`love
3/18/2006 12:27:00 pm
Friday, March 17, 2006
finally... almost there...
hang on girl...
`love
3/17/2006 12:47:00 am
Thursday, March 16, 2006
while everybody was hard at work, i'm partying away at MoS (Ministry of Sound). yes. the new club place. not as exciting as i expected it to be. seem to me like any other club, where they play super loud music, and where ppl get drunk, where ppl dance (ppl there dun really dance), where others hook others or get hooked by others. i guess i can only go clubbing when i'm feeling rich. cos it really cost alot to go clubbing. especially if u'r high on alcohol. luckily didnt drink alot jus now. jus 1 shot of tequila pop at MoS. the music there isnt my type ba. it's something like retro rock, or old rock, or anything which i cant think of what else it could be. joce n chris went dancing at the dance floor. i would probably join them if they were playing modern hip hop or modern pop. i'd seriously enjoy more. anyway, this makes the 3rd time i'm going clubbing. so i wouldnt know where plays the music i like. n not to mention, i nearly got choke once again. avril said she needed a gas mask! my goodness...
left the choking place shortly after chris n joce came back from the dance floor. we went around clarke quey and then settled down in a pub called China One. it's not bad actually. we originally thought it was pretty bad, cos it's quite empty, and is not veri happening. but our mind change soon after our drinks n food was served. haha. their wedges with chilli crab sauce is superb. lol. and their vodka lime is super good too. =) finally had some peace and also a less smoky environment. we stepped into there by random, mostly cos we dunno where to go. they're offering vodka 1 for 1. that's also wat lured us in. haha.
came back to hall finally. took quite long to shower. i was paranoid that my hair might still have a bit of smoke smell, so i washed it twice. *oops* paranoid right? hahaa....
a hall bash is much better. at least u know most of the ppl there, and u will only keep bumping into ppl u know. makes it feel like home too. well, not
that kind of home, but ya, i tink u all understand wat i mean. maybe going with a bigger group of ppl, with better music, and better mood, everything would definitly be much much better. it's not really a good day to club with lynn thinking about java programming, avril thinking about physics tutorial, and me thinking about my classroom management essay. haa...
at least i managed to finish my IT reflection essay jus now in nie library, and borrowed 3 super useful books from the library for my classroom management essay. a good start. tmr's gonna be better. my aim is to finish reading these books, do sufficient research, and start on my essay. oh, and also to finalise my academic writing research paper's topic. so many things on hand!! oh dear... how am i gonna finish them?
after exams... that'll definitely be a much better time to do anything as compared to now. i swear i'll be in a better mood (*high*) to club/pub when exam is over. joce and chris, if u happen to wanna go again, we check out other places and go after exams k? i promise i'll dance with u all. =)
meanwhile, cheers and hope all study plans goes well for everyone out there.
and may my mind stop wondering off to... ...
`love
3/16/2006 03:09:00 am
Wednesday, March 15, 2006
went to the band room to study yesterday night. this is the second time i'm there to study. result ---> not veri effective. perhaps it's gotta do with me rushing late into the night for my assignment and den waking up early in the morning for lesson. resulting in the super tired me who totally can't do a single thing last night. left early with daniel. n missed a whole load of fun geri n co had. i slept once i reached hall last night, and i slept all the way until 11.30 this morning. i guess that should cover for the sleep i lost for the previous night ba.
i cant say i'm totally feeling ok about what happened. i guess i jus need more time to get used to it. sigh.
my gastric is definitely getting better. i hope it's not just imagination on my part. i really hope it's better.
currently in nie library printing notes. later going to do research for my dearest classroom management essay. get it done and over with, and i can start on my next research paper. i badly need to start on that. cos it's not easy to do. sigh... heavy workload...
where's the little lightstick that light up my life? i need u...
`love
3/15/2006 02:58:00 pm
Tuesday, March 14, 2006
all good things come to an end...
bad things too...
right?
no idea if anyone would classify it the same way as i did
highly doubt so
still, this morning's message came to be as a shock. i don't know how i should react to it. it happened too fast, too sudden, and i totally didnt expect it. i know i should not be thinking about it already. why hold on to the past? why don't i jus let go and put everything behind me? why am i still affected by it?
maybe it's a blessing in disguise
maybe it's better if u go away
but i jus cant bear it...
`love
3/14/2006 08:54:00 pm
perhaps... perhaps...
i don't know...
look up at that lonesome star......
and that fading light......
and that.......
and.......
`love
3/14/2006 12:24:00 am
Sunday, March 12, 2006
perhaps teaching isnt the line for me...
i'm a total procrastinator, 1 who doesnt does her work till really last minute, till she have no choice as the work is gonna be due in hours... sigh... i really dun have the mood to do lab report now la... it's getting on my nerves to have to always force myself to do things i dun like and worse still, when i absolutly have no mood for it...
but girl... there's no time to waste...
u have:
1 lab report due in less then a day
1 1000 words essay due in 12 days
1 500 words essay due in 12 days
1 2500 words research paper due in 25 days
1 major test to come
1 pair work project to be due soon
i really have no more time left...
ok... i sense my mood is coming...
work.... here i come again...
`love
3/12/2006 05:54:00 pm
Saturday, March 11, 2006
take some time off
off this very busy schedule
take time off to look beside you
your friends, your family, your everybody else.
no matter how hard it is
always be there for them
never take anyone for granted
never take life for granted
no one knows what's going to happen
no one knows how the future is going to be
one minute i might be here talking to you
another i might already be gone
treasure wat u have
n treasure those around u.
no one should be taken for granted
in more ways then one...
`love
3/11/2006 09:48:00 pm
Thursday, March 09, 2006
i jus realised i have alot of things on my "wants" list.
-pink adidas jacket-
-pink projectshop bloodbrothers side carry bag-
-new flats-
-new jeans-
-new tops-
but i dun have the money...
when is bonus coming again?
and when are the increasing my pay?
studystudystudy.... is there anything else for me to do?
or rather.. is there anything else i can do?
i dun wanna study all day... but i know i need to catch up on my work... haiz... it's this time of the sem again.. where work is continuously piling... i'm suffocating... someone save me...
ineveitable comparison... that's wat it is...
`love
3/09/2006 10:07:00 pm
"no one can be an angel forever"
perhaps u just havent seen the other side of me.
rather moody these few days...perhaps it's gotta do wif how depressing my grades can get. i'm already putting in alot of effort. or at least i'm trying to.
no alcohol for me this week and next, along with a long list of food n drinks i cant take. i'm down with gastritis, something like a mild stomach lining inflamation. currently on medication, and getting gastric almost everyday. should be fine soon... medicine should be working...
perhaps i was snappy... but i seriously think i'm not in the wrong. i really cant be bothered if things were to stay like this.
was at the band room for a study session jus now... got quite a bit of work done... was outside sitting at the steps outside band room, looking out at the stretch of road that leads up to nanyang house (where the band room is)... i see the past... i felt happie... i was motivated...
turn back the time... look up the sky...
`love
3/09/2006 01:25:00 am
Sunday, March 05, 2006
some good soul found my ic, matric card, atm card, cashcard, as well as ntusb contact book.
good soul indeed
`love
3/05/2006 10:37:00 pm
Saturday, March 04, 2006
lost my wallet...
terribly upset.
but what can i do?
what's done cant be undone.
not like as if i'll be able to find it...
n i havent been studying for the whole week.
i noe it.
n i'm feeling guilty,
that i should not be failing simple quizzes.
i need to salvage wat's left,
before everything's too late.
the ensemble performance wasnt good
i didnt played well at all.
the SO concert wasnt fantastic either.
oh well, at least it's over.
had gastric the other day.
it's a bad gastric day, which led to nausea.
i'm ok already. so.. no worries...
back home again...
u tell me not to think so muchn time will do the rest awaybut how long is time gonna take?no amount of sorry is gonna helpand no amount of things i do will keep u out of my mindi miss you
`love
3/04/2006 10:27:00 pm
Wednesday, March 01, 2006
i had a choice.
but i chose the alternative.
silly me.
with u,
it felt so right
it felt as though nothing could go wrong,
felt like u'r simply the one.
but u'r not.
n i couldnt find anyone else like u.
n no one to give me the same feelings i once felt.
forget... jus let go n forget...
`love
3/01/2006 03:37:00 pm
