Friday, March 30, 2007
just did the personality test just now, and i'm an easy rider, a thriller, a new wave puritan, and a love bug.
i tink the most true personality decription is the love bug. it says "They are the type who fall in love a thousand times a day. Their feelings snowball quickly, and they are full of passion." and i tink it's so true. i really do fall in love a thousand times a day, and most often than not, i let my emotions rule my mind.
and yes. i'm never seemed to have enough rest. i think i'm just too lazy at times. haha... "Either way your snooze is your best friend, and at times your worse enemy!" oh boy... that's so true...
others are just more or less true here and ther...
i can see how my personality changed overtime... although most of me is still the same, i know some of my thinkings are no longegr the same. like, i fall in love more often now than last time... i like new excitement as compared to the boring old me... and some others i don't know... not really sure which is for the better and which is not. not sure how and when i changed... not sure of what i really want...
still as blur? i guess so...
原来我什么都不要
`love
3/30/2007 02:15:00 am
`love
3/30/2007 01:09:00 am
Wednesday, March 28, 2007
first it's ktv with edmund this morning, we went to sing klunch!
den now followed by a damn flying hideous looking that produce a loud buzzing sound insect that flew from the corridor into MY ROOM!!!!
i tink it's hard not to lose my voice... bahh~
cos ar.. u see.. this insect was stuck onto the wall outside neighbour's room, so i thought that it'll be pretty harmless if it stays like that, or fly away into the wild. but.... it decided to take a break from just stinking onto the wall, and buzz around the wall! and blast it... i cant walk arcoss the corridor cos i'm scared of it!so i started screaming, and jill decided to help by spraying inseticide to kill it.. and the stupid insect flew right into my room!!! but poor jill... the insect flew to her leg while she's trying to kill it... but oh well, at least it's dead now... it wouldnt have died if it didnt fly in front of me... roarr... i swear i thought i instantly lost my voice after that whole fiasco...
esp after the 3 hr k lunch this morning.... haha... but it was fun!! =) 2 ppl sing for 3 hrs, so we generally have quite alot of time to sing... hahaha... den somemore we so "zi high".. oh man... no more voice!! esp edmund... after his whole personal concert of jay chou's songs... lol... heeee...
super tired now... totally ran out of adrenaline.. just now wanted to do some work in the library, but i ended up falling asleep for 45 mins... but at least i was awake after that short nap, and did some organic tutorial... at least better den nothing. i tink i wouldn't have done anything if i went back hall just now... so humid!! i cant wait to go for a swim in the cold cold pool... work work work.... i need to focus!
live, like it's the last moon risingscream, just like no one's therelose all of my defenceshold you, touch you, love youlike it's the very last moment in time
`love
3/28/2007 11:35:00 pm
Tuesday, March 27, 2007
how time flies
it's going to be the end of another semester
and i cant find a reason to be happy.
for one, i know that this is perhaps going to be my slackest sem ever
and probably the best scoring sem ever
(not that i can really fair any much better, but as long as i don't fail...)
the most enjoyable sem because stats is my fav module
and because voice GE never fail to make me frown
and of course, the end of this sem marks the beginning of yr 3
the beginning of hell sem once again.
2 more weeks of study
and 1 week of exam break
and it's going to be the exams proper.
mixed feelings
all i know is that i'm certainly going to miss the people in my GE. esp those closer ppl like serene, guanda, say you and ryan... probably never going to have a chance to see them again... how sad...
as the famous saying goes,
all good things will eventually come to an end.
embrace.
`love
3/27/2007 07:37:00 pm
Thursday, March 22, 2007
i finally satisfied my craving and went ktv last night! yay.. at least it's a night of proper release of stress and emotions. calvin was super high as usual, and meihui too! haha... i hope we get to go k together more often. haha.. it's fun despite us not really knowing calvin that well. but who cares... he's damn friendly! hahaha... =) i'm a happie girl again!
stats test is finally over, and i'm glad i managed to finish studying it in time for the test despite starting only at 3am that very morning. glad that i managed to do the test too, and i hope for as little careless mistakes as possible, as one careless mistake in the first part might lead to the wrong answers in all the rest of the parts.
today, we're all talking about what modules to take next semester, and find myself at a loss, no aim, no idea of what my future is going to be. had a talk with tang, and also suggest (just like what cheang suggested) for me to take only 1 yr 3 AS first, while i complete my calculus. the other AS to be taken in sem 2, or in yr 4. it's a complete rollover. when u cant complete one module in a sem, it rolls on to the other sem, and it snowballs horribly, and i totally regreted not working harder for my very first paper in nie. i guess i cant go on like this, cant go on aimlessly. i'll work hard, and i hope that by the end of my yr 3, nothing gets brought forward anymore. i can make it. i can make it to the finishing line.
sing me a song.come, sing to me...
`love
3/22/2007 04:12:00 pm
Tuesday, March 20, 2007
sigh... all i need now, is that little support to lift me up again...
perhaps... it's all wishful thinking afterall...
just came back from the shifting of the band room from nanyang house to main lecture theatre. and now i feel like i've been a coolie for a whole day, and i'm just about to collapse onto my bed and fall into a very deep sleep. i just want to rest my body, my limbs especially (after packing that horrible library with near a million music scores in them), and not to forget, rest my mind. i feel completely exhausted, and my brain no longer listen to me anymore.
how can i get working like this? i still have a stats quiz to study for! and it's taking place in 15 hours time. and i do not have all 15 hours to study as i have a bloody lab session at 8.30 in the morning. blast it.
and what have i been doing for the past few days? why haven't i been studying for that freaking stats quiz when i know it meant so much to me? bloody procrastination.... i hate myself for that.
i am simply not in the mood for any studying right now. maybe except to hide myself in a corner of my room and just let the tears flow, let the emo feelings out, and let myself calm down before starting on my work again.
i need you.
`love
3/20/2007 12:15:00 am
Sunday, March 18, 2007
sometimes i wish i can have all the money in the world, to buy all the things in the world. or at least all those i fancy. i used to save and not buy branded stuffs, but reflecting on what i'm carrying and wearing now, i start to doubt if i really mean it when i say i wanna save. i own a pair of birks, a pair of havaianas, a crumpler bag, a num bag, and now i wanna buy a new nike bag (a damage of 82 bucks for that nike bag).
am i spending too much? i wish i didnt have to think of any money issue when i wanna buy the things i like. it's just too vexing, and it kills too many brain cells. i'm probably gonna buy that nike bag anyway.
meanwhile, it's too tiring guessing what's going through in your mind, and what you're thinking. i shall just be myself, and leave things as it is. please stop me from all my day-dreaming!
because of you, i can smile.accidentally in love...
`love
3/18/2007 11:36:00 pm
Friday, March 16, 2007
FOP... roar!!
i'm really full of problems lor... first it's a sprained foot, den now it's toothache. and to get the ache away, i went to buy some painkillers at the guardian, and found myself allergic to it. and so? i ended up with 2 really swollen eyes, and a swollen throat, together with a block nose and gastric. oh boy... tell me what a mess i've gotten myself into? so i rushed down to a clinic with a cap on to hide my hidious eyes, and i had a jab to reduce the swellings. and i finally knew i'm allergic to NSAIDS family drugs, i.e. aspirin and all others that's related to aspirin. bahhh~
and so the swellings didnt completely go down, as i went to class with 2 swollen looking eyes. plus i feeling like puking the time before i went to class. felt really horrible... guanda was still wondering what happened to me, as i appeared to be really pale without any colour on my face, with really pale lips too. he knew i was unwell.
went to see a dentist just now, and apparently the hurting is caused by my wisdom tooth. and i was recommended to pluck out all 4 at the same time with a full body general anestatic. goodness gracious me... i think i won't survive that...
and i feel pretty unwell the whole day, drifting in and out of sleep. and suddenly, a silly thinking came to me...
i suddenly feel like loving, and be loved in return.
how good it is to have a boyfriend, someone i can rely on, someone i know who'll always be there for me when i need him. someone who loves me too. someone to whine to when i'm upset, someone to listen to all my troubles, someone to just be there.
i suddenly wanna love. i wanna be in love.
wake me up from this silly dream...help me face reality...
`love
3/16/2007 11:39:00 pm
Monday, March 12, 2007
all the nightmares of the past will go away
as i live my dream all over again.
and this time round
my dream will come true
i have faith it will. =)
`love
3/12/2007 12:36:00 am
Sunday, March 11, 2007
http://penderiecouture.blogspot.com/a "bestest" friend's online shop! do patronise! lots of pretty stuffs sold there... =)
`love
3/11/2007 11:41:00 pm
Saturday, March 10, 2007
you made my day
and you made me feel like i'm in love
i'm happy.
=)
i finally got to watch protege! haha... and i bought my new havaianas!! and i had super yummy buttered dory fish, with super sinful oreo icecream dessert. *satisfied* and that's all i need to be happy. and i hope there's a next time.
and may this happyness stay forever... and keep me in a good mood always...
so, smile! for yourselffor the people around youfor love.
`love
3/10/2007 01:23:00 am
Thursday, March 08, 2007
"all guys are bastards"
do you agree?
ok la.. maybe i was being mean... not all guys are bastards.. jus majority that's all... why do guys always change after they enter a relationship? why can't they treasure what they have? why cant they stay the way they are before they get the girl they want? why so guys always end up hurting the girl?
bahhh~ emo on that issue... i shall not comment further..
lets go on to another happy issue... i found my courage! haha... thx joce! perhaps u think u didnt do anything at all, but after talking to u, i found my courage... haha... =) and everything went right again... and i'm happy!
now... happy mood = tutorial time! i can work in ease!
`love
3/08/2007 12:48:00 am
Tuesday, March 06, 2007
1 silly quiz is over.
finally.
i feel i can take a breather again, before getting back down to work. i feel so overwhelmed. esp with a transition quiz next monday, and a stats test the following week. and a few hundred thousand lab report to be done and due, and so many more...
and i've yet to find that courage...
`love
3/06/2007 06:47:00 pm
where did the courage go?
since when did i lose it all?
i only wanted to talk to you...
ignore me... i'm damn stressed.
`love
3/06/2007 12:19:00 am
Sunday, March 04, 2007
each time i'm stressed, all i can do is to look forward to the end of a thursday. cos despite a tiring day in the first half of every thursday, i know i can look forward to a relaxing end of thursday, and a fun filled friday, and then the weekend.
all i want is for friday to come... cos i'm super stressed now...
`love
3/04/2007 09:59:00 pm
