car wash is over and done with!


it's indeed true that everything we do has a learning point. this carwash is indeed an experience! super alot of ppl didnt turn up today, but it's okay. there're still a few who came! many many thanx to those who specially came down for this canvassing event. =)


my first tuition assignment is starting on next thurs! hahaha... it's a sec 3 guy and will be teaching him A.maths. hope i can handle this tuition assignment well! it's my very first, and i'll give it my best shot! like what alot of ppl tell me.. i must have confidence in myself! i hope the parents and the tuition guy have confidence in me too.. tsk tsk...


i can do it!

slacking my time off in hall totally! it's sometimes surprising how i'm motivated to clean up my room in hall, but not my room at home. how i managed to find things to do in hall, but not at home. how much i enjoy staying in hall than at home. perhaps it's gotta do with the freedom and the less frequent nagging...


oh well, the thing is that i decide to clean up my cupboard this time round, and clear a space to put xinyi and jill's stuff. so i took out everything in the cupboard. placed the clean clothes on the bed, and other misc stuff on the floor. i never realise how much stuff i actually have in my cupboard!!! it actually filled up 2 beds and the floor!! roarrrr... my room look like as it has just been broken in by thief or what... hahahhaa... it's messy like hell...


cleared alot of stuff, and emptied a shelf for xinyi n jill's stuff. surprised i could even free a shelf!! *proud of myself* clothes are more organised now, and toiletries are all in place! floor and bags are cleared and placed properly neatly by my bed, table cleared too! fridge too! threw away quite a number of stuff in there cos they are all expired... hhahaa... mop the floor and cleaned my cupboard inside out before putting back the clothes. now everything is so nice and neat! i love my room!!


but one sad fact... i think next yr i won't be able to get a room... cos not enough points... all those that met the cut off points are ah tiongs la, ah nehs la, vietnamese la, indonesians la... bla bla bla... this new HAS is so screwed. i CONDEMN it. argh. after being so active in hall n out of hall, i still lack in points. wth... most of the third floor girls cant stay either... already in the midst of planning to move into an apartment together. now waiting for the results of hall allocation. if really cant get a room, we'll have to move out and start scouting for a place soon...


well, at least now my room is clean to stay in from now till i don't know how long i have in here... my room is so personalised already. i seriously cant bear to move out... and the amount of things i have in my room... i think 1 cab also not enough... probably need lorry... move 3 days 3 night... and i'll have to clear my house room, so that i can fit all my stuff from my hall room... roar... i don't wanna move back!!!


help!!


here're some snapshots of my room before and after.. tsk tsk... i really do have alot of barang barang... cleared bags after bags... threw away 5 bags of stuff a week after exams.. and i just threw away another 5 bags of just yesterday.. and i still have so much stuff... my goodness... what exactly do i have??!!!


before!!

after!!

just came back from car wash... or rather.. just finished all the chores from carwash... all the cloths from the carwash was brought back to my house, i washed it, hung it out to dry, washed the pail, kept the trolley, and i have to bring everything back next week again...


tired...


and everything went on pretty smoothly, despite a few hiccups here and there... until this super irritating lady came along and insist we scratched her car and demand a compensation. the thing is it's jac and vril who soaped the car, followed by jiayin n i who cleaned it with clear water. before i clean the front of the car, i already saw the huge scratch there, and i was sure that it was already there before i even clean it. how can she accuse us of scratching her car?!!


i know she's upset about the scratch, and that it's really very costly to paint the scratch, but we're also upset cos we're really innocent!


"if you admit that it's you who scratched the car accidently while washing it, i'll probably let the matter rest. but i hate it when you people DENY scratching it despite having this huge scratch on my car now. i know my car best. there isn't this scratch before i left."


if i scratched it, i WILL admit it.


but i DID NOT SCRATCH HER CAR.


bloody hell...


and all because of her, the rest of my day is spoilt just like that. hate it when she say we keep denying out faults. how to admit something which we didnt do in the first place?


roar... next week still have another round of carwash to go. sure hope all goes well... i don't want another person coming up to me saying i scratched her car. argh...















i feel like SCREAMING!!!

carwash tmr... hope all goes well...


baoling, meihui, xinda they all are going to be back from perth the day after tmr! so i'm going to spend monday n probably tues resting... all geared up for a hongxing outing after the perth ppl rested after they come back from their trip!


i want a voice outing too! i want them all!


but first i need to get back to hall n pack my room. clothes all over my roomie's bed (but it's now on my bed since i'm at home, and just in case vril decides to come back to hall) too lazy to fold them after i took it in from the line.. and i need to pack my table.. throw away more stuff.. find space for a new semester.. pack my cupboard (there're xinyi's pillows, and jill's clothes) and rearrange my shelf and find space (for xinyi's stuff, which is now on meiyue's tv n fridge). ppl start leaving things in my room as they move out of their room for the sem break. haha.. but of cos they're all gonna claim it back once the sem starts... =P and i haven't properly mopped the floor (used only magic clean wipes) after that day baoling n xinda came my room to make meihui's collage. so i'm gonna go back hall on monday, and make things right. make my room clean!!


went shopping with zhusiling on friday after the pre-TA briefing. bought a new top! sigh.. spend money again... but oh well, to comfort myself, it's a really nice top! hahaha... definitely worth spending.






you got me listening
you got me thinking
you gave me confidence
you gave me hope


you comfort
you listen
you advice
you teach
you care
you share
you give in
you trust


one step at a time
i'll change for the better
and when the day comes
i'll thank you for who i am
and who i will be.











stone...

so what have i been up to?


first it was meihui's bday celebration at the noble house. the food is super nice! and i delibrately dressed up for the occasion too. haha... seldom dress up n wear until so nice... so i just treat it as a perfect time to pamper myself a little... =) took super alot of photos, which of course means a lot of vain shots too... >.< super fun night! hope meihui had lots of fun too! i sure enjoyed myself! in more ways than one.


next up was foc meeting at shaw tower. got of at city hall and walked there. as i walk, i felt as though i was following the same trail... a trail leading me to an unforgetable night.


and then it was band prac on sat and back home.


sunday was mother's day! so i booked a table at noble house and brought my mum, dad, and sis to dine there. the food was very nice after trying it the first time at mh's bday celeb. that's y brought them there. =) cost a huge bomb, but didnt care anyway. as long as everyone is happy. that's all that mattered.


and the next few days was spent slacking at home... but there was also a super fun cycling trip to east coast. light drizzle, blue sky, aeroplanes, sea, sand and a happy heart. seldom get days like this anymore.


wed was back to band prac. but before that was a visit to NUH cos freddie just went for an op. get well soon freddie! band prac was good. though i wish that i had more confidence in myself. no matter what i do, good or bad, i always lack confidence. so even if i were to do smt real good, it turns out slightly worse that the expected standard all because i don't have confidence in myself. presentation is like this, public speaking is like this, even playing a solo is like this. do i have what it takes? i always question myself, am i really good enough? there are so many other people better, so many that i start to feel inferior. i should get out of it and gain more confidence in myself, in all that i do. the next time i play that solo (if i ever get the chance), i'm going to play it well. i want to play it well.


finally went to see a doc for a follow up for my fractured foot. it's completely healed! i can do whatever i want! erm.. no more fracture of cos.. haha...


tmr will be travelling all the way back to the east for a pre-TA briefing, and then all the way back to west again cos of a band meeting in the morning followed by a band prac in the afternoon. sunday will be having car wash, and i'll have to wait till monday before my next rest day comes. make the best out of it!


meanwhile, i'm still a happy girl. thanks.

rendezvous

i can finally say


IT IS OVER!


it seems like eternity for time to pass during exam period. sounds ironic though. time pass slow because exams seem to drag forever, but yet time pass fast because you don't have enough time to study for the exams! roar. but at least it's all over. at least for now.


i can say that i was more of in shock that in happiness when i ended my last paper today. i dont seem to know how to react. i'm feeling happy, relieved, sad and worried at the same time. feels weird to be having all emotions coming at one go. i seriously don't know how to react. happy and relieved that the exams are over, sad because it was an alright paper but all i did was creative writing, and worried because of my results that is to come in a month's time.


even while doing the paper, i cant help thinking about different scenarios, like.. what's gonna happen if my gpa still falls below 2, what if this sem's results is still unsatisfactory, what if this sem's results is insufficient to pull up my grades to a gpa of above 2, what if this sem's results IS below 2, what if i'm being forced to change my AS, what if i'm being forced to drop maths and switch to primary, what if, what if.... it's a million and one what if.... i just can't stop worrying. no matter how much i don't wanna think about it, the thought of every little bad things still lingers at the back of my mind. i don't wish for more. so pls grant me my most basic wish.


but oh well, on the happy side, at least i finally get to go out and have a good celebration! met up with a few hongxing peeps, namely xd, david, bl, khai, mh and xia. it was a fun and enjoyable ktv trip! and all about the preparation for the upcoming hongxing singing competition and stuff like that... it was all very fun! went to the 24hr coffee club and talk till 12.30am... and xd sent me back to hall! so nice of him to do so even though it's totally not along the way! =) big thanx! cos he say i'm a girl, so it's still dangerous for me to go home alone... haha... hongxing ppl are all nice... =) the other i was ill for a few days and didnt really get well after popping some pills, and david accompanied me to doc... feel so fortunate to have a great bunch of friends around... =)


meanwhile, i shall slack while i can, before work starts piling again. there's band prac and foc stuffs coming up... n i'm still contemplating whether i should put my driving on hold cos of some money issue, and to prepare for the 5 weeks teaching assistantship that's coming real soon. roar... so yea... slack while i can....











in deep thoughts...